UPDATES!!

Well...sebenarnya dah banyak dah aktiviti yang dibuat beberapa minggu yang lepas...cuma i nie punyala liat nak menulis... This is just to sum up apa yang i dah buat all these while:

1. Terminator : Went to watch it yesterday nite at Garden Shopping Mall with Bee...hemm, well i dont really enjoy watching any of it's sequels let alone movies on it...so about yesterday's movie...i have no comment...but Bee made a statement saying that its just OK...nothing great compared to Terminator 2.

2. Seoul, Korea : Well i've been nominated to present a paper on government procurement during the GPEC seminar which will be held on the 14th and 15th of July nie...hemm ntahlah, trip kali nie, mcm berat je hati nak pergi...ntahla kenapa....just not eager to go, but nak buat macam mana kan, "SAYA YANG MENURUT PERINTAH". Bee tak bagi i pergi coz die kata takut H1N1 nie...hemm ntahla...check with Wisma and WHO, Korea is still clean....

3. Transformers : Cant wait for it to be released...Premier will be on the 24th of June 2009....hemm Bee dah cakap awal2 dgn i dah " Yang, malam tuh gak kita g tgk, make sure beli tiket online awal2...2 days awal pun takper"....hahah..tak sabarnyer lah die...but its worth every RM...coz the movie rocks!

4. Fasha : I was informed by my mum that Fasha baru je nak belajar jalan...bertatih la....tapi mum kata, Fasha jalan cam mabuk todi....hahahahah....mesti lawak....n Fasha dah kenal org sekeliling dah, dah pandai identify muka....

5. Service Kereta : Semenjak Allahyarham Uncle Mokhtar takde, now semua benda i dah kena buat sendiri, contohnya, service kerete i nie, dulu masa die hidup, selalunya die lah yang akan bawa kereta i gi service, i nie part part kereta nie, satu apa pun tak tau...tau bawa je...tulah perempuan...tak nak ambil tau...dulu Babah dah cakap suruh ambil tau, haaaa kan dah susah sekarang...terkontang kanting i...nie dah termiss service yang 30,000 and 35,000...Mileage dah tunjuk 38,000 dah nie...so Sabtu nie i dah buat appointment dah kat Honda , Ampang..alhamdullillah ada Bee nak teman and tunjuk ajar i....kalau tak parah la gak..takut la nanti kena piong kan ngan diorang nie....

6. Rumah Baru : Hemm now rumah banglo 3 tingkat parents i kat JB dah 90% siap dah, untuk sempat nak celebrate musim Raya nie, maybe belum boleh lagi kot, coz ID tak buat lagi....ntahlah...to be honest, since day 1 rumah tu dibuat sehinggalah dah masuk 90% pembinaannya, sekali pun i x pergi jenguk...hemm, satu..jarang balik JB..n then bile balik JB, terus kunci diri kat rumah main ngan Fasha...so nak keluar2 tu dah malas...but my sis said that dalam byk2 bilik...bilik i la yang paling lawa n grand...hemm...macam ada udang sebalik batu je buat grand-grand nie...ntah2 mum i nak nak suruh i duduk lebih dari sorang nie dlm bilik tuh....aduhhhhh

7. Kahwin: nie isu yang malas la sgt nak berbincang..but mum i dah patah harap dah dgn i...coz die pernah la mention kat i, yg kawan2 die dok tanya, "Bila anak sulong u, Fara nak kahwin, she's 30 right?"...haih, manalah mum i x tension...so she says" Fara tuh dah memang tak nak kahwin la tuh, habis semua org die tolak...ntahla nak tunggu saper"....memangla menyedihkan bile mum cakap mcm tuh, but i cant help it, i just dont feel like marrying those guys...i only love Bee...and relationship with Bee is so complicated....

8. Baju Raya : Ok, nak tunggu body slim sikit lalgi, then boleh la semua material material yang telah berkurun lama disimpan dalam almari, digunakan untuk buat baju...maybe nak buat Baju kurung Johor jer or paling paling, Kebaya labuh...kebaya pendek teringan gak, but i nie dah la x suka pakai kurungs gi kerja..more comfy with 3 piece suit or 2 piece suit, so kalau sesekali nak pakai kurung ke kerja, tak sanggup i nak pakai kebaya2 pendek ke ofis...rasa semacam...and then x suka kurungs yang gody gody sgt..suka yang simple and not too much flowers and labuchies...mum dah bising dah tuh...katanya takut raya nanti, tak sempat nak buat and then asyik2 pakai baju yang sama...OK mum, i promise, 1 July 2009 i hantar....

9. Father's Day: so it seems Father's Day will be on the 21st June 2009 nie...so, that week tu i nak balik JB to celebrate it with my Dad...tu la pentingnya ada Mother's day and Father's day nie..memang betul hari Ibu dan Ayah sepatutnya diraikan setiap hari(sepertimana diperdebatkan oleh orang orang melayu sekarang nie,..kononnya marah set set kami nie celebrate mum n father's day nie..katanya ikut mat salleh)...ntahla i dgn persepsi orng2 kita nie...bukannya kita ikut ajaran agama Kristian...meraikan ibu dan ayah adalah perkara yang baik...and terumatanya bagi i nie...dah la duduk jauh dari parents, and then nak balik pun susah...so bile ada hari hari mcm nie, kite ingat kat diorang...itu gunanya...ntahla...kadang2 tuh bosan bile ckp dgn org org melayu yang sempit fikiran nie...sometimes diorang cakap tuh sebab parents masing masing berdekatan..n ada tuh yang duduk bersekali dgn parents...so kalau i nak celebrate ke, kenapa nak jealous...x kacau pun org lain...nak cakap halal haram...semua haram...ntah bila ntah celebrate Mum's Day and Father's Day nie haram pun tak tau...tulah, manusia yg sebenarnya menyukarkan sesuatu benda tuh...bukannya agama islam...

10. SKII: in the process of changing my skincare product, which im currently using SKII into Dermalogica...maybe not all...just a few items.. especially cleanser die, teringin nak pakai Cleanser Dermalogica...macam toner and miracle water SKII, still nak maintain coz very effective, memang boleh nampak perbezaan kulit...memangla kulit tak putih..but kulit jadi very light, no acne and pores tak besar....

11. GPS system : tak sabar nak beli GPS for my car...nak install kat dlm kereta i so that senang nak bergerak ....kalau tak asyik depend kat Bee je...dah jadi malu dah i....nie nasib baik Bee ada, leh ajar n tolong...kalau Bee takde, camner nie...nak harapkan orang lain, memang susahla...so kenalah bergantung pada mesin komputer nie....

12. LV : haa...now nie tgh bekerja keras mengumpul duit hasil titik peluh bekerja nie, untuk beli Luios Vuitton Monogram Neverfull MM (Euro 430)....tinggal la 20% nak mencapai budget nie...c'mon fara, u can do it!....


Oklah...sampai di sini dulu recaps i...next time i buat summary lagi mcm nie...nila dinamakan org yang malas nak menulis tapi tergedik2 nak ada blog sendiri....

Fasha oh fasha sayang...

I miss her so much...she is our lights and our baby...as for me...i have two babies now...seriously...heheheh..one...Fasha...and another...my charming "Bee".

The photos above are her latest one..i took it when i was in JB recently...i felt pretty bad coz i couldnt make it to her 1st birthday on 13th of May 2009...but i hope, she knows, that she's always in my heart....now and forever...

P/S: itu gambar fasha dengan nanny die...

Mother's Day Part 2

Well....i know u guys will say that, this story would now be a little bit left behind...but i cant help it....i have to share these beautiful pictures...

It started when i was browsing the net and saw this beautiful decorative 3D cupcakes and immediately fell in love with it...suddenly..it occurred to me that "maybe i should do some surprises for my mum since i wont be around during Mother's Day"....

I called the lady and made some orders (6 pieces of simple decorative butter cream cupcakes & 6 pieces of simple 3D decorative fondant cupcakes-karang ambil yang melampau-lampau design, mum i x makan la pulak sebab sayang)...So on mother's day, the lady herself delivered the cakes to my mother, who was working at that time and surprised by her presence....The lady took some snapshots of my mum and the cupcakes that were customized according to my request.....and i was extremely happy coz my mum called me afterwards and was thankful of the thoughts...well mummy, u dont need to thank your daughter...its me that has to be thankful to u, coz without u, i wont be as who i am and what ive become now...

Feelings that i hate the most...

i received bad news this morning, confirming of things that i am afraid of all these while...upon knowing the news, my heart broke into pieces and felt as though i am about to lose someone important in my life....

i kept on thinking..."am i going to lose this person"..."am i going to face this misery once again"..."am i going to be all alone again"..."am i going to face another breakdown"....oh my god...i really do not want to feel those pain again....it took me almost a year to stand on my own feet and start believing in something that i nearly lost trust and faith in....why is it so hard to love and to be in love....

I know, from the very beginning, i should'nt have loved this person...but who would know, a friendship would turn out to be something really beautiful and meaningful...and here i am...thinking the worst things that could happen in days/weeks/months/years to come...not knowing what would/could happen...

i am so scared of losing this person...oh yes i am...only god knows how afraid i am of losing this one person whom i had wished all my life...i could only pray to god that, if he is meant for me, then he would always be with me...physically, mind, heart and soul.....irregardless of the time that we now have less to spend ....i know i have to be strong...even though i know in this kind of relationship, i have lots of things to lose rather than him...i am aware of that...fully aware of it...but i love him...i love him so dearly...so, if this is what i have to face and deal with, i will face this.... even if it's painful for me...if he wants to c me less..i'll try..if he wants to call me less, i'll try...and i hope, all the things that i have done, wont turn against me.......:'(

Happy Mother's Day.....

Today...a day that is celebrated by moms all over the world....Happy Mother's Day!.....We love u mama....and forgive me for all the things that i've done to cause you pain...and definately i know that i have...a lot.....

Love the arrangement of the flowers...seeing the bouque...reminds me of the 2 bouques that i've recieved from Bee....such a romantic man and a loving boyfriend...:)....

Nothing much to say....

I reached JB safely at approximately 1.30pm....and the first thing that i did when i reached home was, straight away walked towards Fasha's room and woke her up so that i could play with her...rindu sesangat kat die...kejam kan i,kejut org tgh tidur...tapi fasha nie bagus, die tak merengek walaupun dikejut...die senyum je....so in love with her...so adorable....

after about half an hour with her, i suddenly felt tired and sleepy..i guess it was from the driving earlier...so i went to my room to take a short nap...tgh tgh nak nap tuh, ternampak Bee online, so i chat sekejap dgn die...rindunya la kat Bee...baru je sampai jb, x sampai berapa jam kat sini, dah terasa rindu kat die....haih.....parah nie....

Bee ....u promised me nak gi tgk wolverine...n...yg paling best, u promise nak teman i g Celcom....:)....dont forget yah baby....

I LOVE U BABY....

i miss my man....miss him terribly rite now...wish he was here with me.....